being broke

is no joke. I've never been this broke in my life! I don't know whether I am coming or going ... We said that we're saving for a SUV but why when its just us three and and our two cars work fine ... Then we switch and say that its for our cleaning credit jar, then a house, then a vacay ... but the only sure thing I know is that I am broke and I want to buy things. Okay, the things I want aren't the things I need but I want them so bad that there almost a need and now I'm wondering if that counts ... I feel like a kid on punishment and their allowance has been taken away and that is one of the punishment factors ::urgh::

The New Year is atop of us and I need to set a few resolutions ...
(1) to stop spending frivolously..,.
(2) to be the black Martha Stewart, both home and kitchen
(3) to actually see through a few event plannings ... ::urgh::

Now that I am thinking about it, Mister Marley's birthday is less than 8 weeks which means I need to get the ball going on his party planning and maybe that'll be one of my resolutions but before I jump to 2/14, I need to get to 12/25 ... OH NO Christmas is fast approaching and I haven't bought any gifts which means I have to hit the malls with these craze people ... #prayforme